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Kuroo-Ryu In reply to gentleEvan [2015-01-22 18:36:02 +0000 UTC]

Thank you!!

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Kuroo-Ryu In reply to arteater1 [2015-01-22 18:38:55 +0000 UTC]

I get what you mean. I just love it as it is technically one of my very best.

And I guess I draw these kind of strong women because I've always wanted to be strong enough to take on whatever the world would throw at me.
I was always tired of being the tiny vulnerable girl in school.
I think that's why

And they also seem more dramatic I guess...

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arteater1 In reply to Kuroo-Ryu [2015-01-23 01:03:04 +0000 UTC]

This is sad in a way, and makes me smile a bit in another way.

Here's a girl that draws woman a certain way, in hopes that some of the strength she see's in that character will somehow rub off on her and she somehow gets these super kind of powers to handle the things in life that seem so difficult to her.

What she doesn't KNOW, is that she ALREADY has ALL the power she'll ever need if she just steps out and uses that same power she thinks doesn't exist for her, and that she doesn't have.
You see.....her MIND is what she has to fight and deal with and not the issues of the day she fears. It's her mind that has drawn these images of a weak, tiny girl unable to stand up or fight or change what she wishes that is the REAL problem. It's like a phony image has been placed over the REAL TRUE image and the truth is hidden from her view.

She looks....thinks....see's the phony picture that hides the real picture and she believes the negative image.

BUT WHY??? We could just as easily believe the positive, or the true image couldn't we, with just as much ease  or effort and tons of added happiness along the way.

This is why a certain few people in this world my dear...will see the real person they were meant to be and accomplish anything they feel like, from inventions to president to millionaire to leader of countries. Most of them are no more powerful or smarter than you are but will step out of what YOU see, and into what they want to see, and not let those fears and secret negative thoughts that bind most all of us stop them.

They didn't all get that as a gift for free either, but at some point just said...."from this point on, I CHOOSE to think and see myself with no limits on what I can do" and then they go to work and get the education they need to make their dreams a reality.
EXACTLY LIKE YOU COULD TOO.......EXACTLY  the same!!!

I wish you nothing but the love of a thousand people....all pulling for you to be all you dream of being..To live without fear is a real key to life.

All my love and kindness....dennis

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Kuroo-Ryu In reply to arteater1 [2015-01-26 11:44:30 +0000 UTC]

I don't know, honestly I don't know why I can't see myself as a strong person...

Even the thought of moving out seems like the same as having to climb mount everest.. Yet tins of people my age have already done it.
I had to go to the garage to get a check up on the car, it made me extremely nervous because I didn't know what to do, where to go or who to talk to, even though my dad told me...

I live in fear of doing things wrong, of doing things which went wrong before... I hold back on myself always because I'm afriad of what people will think of me.

My life is controlled by the fear of everything that I do or experience...

I remember a time when I was younger, I got so sick and tired of being a cry-baby, that I simply just said to myself that it was over. I didn't cry once for about two years.
It was destroyed as I became a teenager and started to feel the winter depression. Ever since I haven't been able to get back up. The realization of growing up slammed me unto the ground and I haven't been able to get up since... I have no strength.  

When I feel the best, is the time when I somehow forget that I don't feel like I have something to live for.

I can't explain it, it comes from nowhere, in periods of time... Switching between feeling fine and feeling absolutely nothing.
The bad times is when I can overcome nothing. School, spare time activities, homework, family and friends, social activities which should be only fun to do... It's all stressing me out. 

I don't get it, I can't figure out why it's like this... What's wrong with me? Why can't I just set my mind on something and then do it? Instead of being distracted by whatever I feel like doing....

I hope you're doing good at least

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arteater1 In reply to Kuroo-Ryu [2015-01-29 00:43:13 +0000 UTC]

I'm NOT going to fill you with phony stupid things that I'm guessing about, and really have no idea about and will save you from hearing all that junk most other people say IF.....IF.....IF THEY can think of ANYTHING TO SAY IN THE FIRST PLACE.

I don't know why your not sure of yourself or see yourself as you really are, or are filled with self-confidence and well-being about yourself.
I just know this.....YOU SHOULD be filled with those things, but if your NOT then you can be if you read the right books or talk to the right people that know about these things.

I would tell you that it's somehow connected to how we grow up in those first few years of life but really....it doesn't make any difference WHY or WHO was responsible does it? It only means anything in regards to being able to fix it. That's all that counts.

I KNOW THIS FOR CERTAIN....your thoughts in your head are what causes all this and if those thoughts got there in the first place, then we can CHANGE THEM absolutely for sure to make new ones. This fact is so important because then you know this is not a life-time sentence of fighting all this junk, and CAN be fixed at some point if we MAKE THE EFFORT.

Talking to a pastor of a church can sometimes help too and they are trained to counsel people and are free.
The best thing is to talk to a doctor that specializes in this and they're all over the place, but may be expensive unless insurance covers them and in Denmark I think they do. The waiting list is probably endless though as NOTHING is easy today anymore.

I hope and pray you can summon the energy to go start this task and get help instead of NEEDLESSLY suffer in this world, when really you don't have to anymore. They can really help many people today and not always with drugs either unless you want them. I've seen some people with anxiety disorders like yours take such a small amount of a tiny pill that takes anxiety away, and they do great while they talk things out and then can just quit taking the medication as they get better. It's not anything like making you feel out of it, or sleepy or all that stuff if you take small amounts. The only thing you'll notice is that your anxiety is way, WAY less. I hope that sounds good to you too.
The exercise and meditation and rest and food and talking, can do the exact same thing as well but takes a bit longer. 

All the best to you and I hope you know that this world needs you in it to balance out all the crooks and crummy people, so we can't afford to lose a single one like you and also you still have so much work to do helping someone or animals or environment or whatever you choose.
Nothing but love and kindness as always. denn~

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Kuroo-Ryu In reply to A7XFan666 [2015-01-08 09:31:07 +0000 UTC]

Thank you!!

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A7XFan666 In reply to Kuroo-Ryu [2015-01-08 19:40:29 +0000 UTC]

You're welcome

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Kuroo-Ryu In reply to Lustanjo [2015-01-05 21:45:11 +0000 UTC]

Thank you!

(I know the lips are wrong... just ignore it )

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Lustanjo In reply to Kuroo-Ryu [2015-01-06 06:07:35 +0000 UTC]

Oki! <3 <3 <3

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