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I learned so many things,
So many things from you.
So much I couldn't see,
About life, the world, and me.

You told me 'Follow your bliss',
And you saw damn well I did.
You lead me where I had not gone,
You did this, then something went wrong.

How was I supposed to follow my bliss?
Just what could I do?
When my bliss was cut from me,
When I could no longer see you.

You knew me so well,
Better than I knew myself,
There's no way you could've dreamed,
No way I'd hit the ground running.

That I would be fine,
That everything would be all right.
Dreamed that I'd fall in stride,
And manage to stay by your side.

Left with the ghost of you,
What the fuck was I supposed to do?
How could I sit there and believe?
You'd leave me with no mercy?

I denied it all, I flat-out refused to see.
I'd sooner end my life than think you'd abandon me.
All this anguish is the result of what was heresy.
That you'd let me take this fall and just let me be.

Maybe I was supposed to know
How to land and how to go,
From losing my very best friend
And straight to when this pain would end.

But I don't work that way,
You know that as the truth.
I could hardly stand to stay awake,
Thinking so much about you.

A total fucking wreck,
Is that not what you'd expect?
When you knew me so well,
And didn't try to catch me when I fell?

Was this tough love?
Was this a lesson to learn?
Why would you do this?
Just let me crash and burn?

I didn't hit the ground running,
I stumbled and fell.
I broke against the ground,
Life became a living hell.

So I'd stare up at the sky,
I'd hurt and wonder why,
Why would you let this occur?
What was this suppose to confer?

So you truly loved me,
You were my closest friend.
Yet you gave no warning,
As to how this would end.

The strength with which we were connected
Makes it impossible to go a day
Where my memories are not forcefully corrected
To pretend this pain has gone away.

So you told me to follow my bliss,
But how can I do that?
When I can no longer see you,
How can I bounce back?

I guess what I'm trying to say,
Is I got through it any way.
I had others help me get through,
No particular thanks to you.

I trusted you so much more than anyone,
More than I would ever trust anything,
If there is one thing I've learned,
It's to always question who I'm trusting.

Yes, I've grown from this,
I've developed thicker skin,
I still love you and that's the truth
But when and if you come back?
You have some explaining to do.

Description
I learned so many things,
So many things from you.
So much I couldn't see,
About life, the world, and me.

You told me 'Follow your bliss',
And you saw damn well I did.
You lead me where I had not gone,
You did this, then something went wrong.

How was I supposed to follow my bliss?
Just what could I do?
When my bliss was cut from me,
When I could no longer see you.

You knew me so well,
Better than I knew myself,
There's no way you could've dreamed,
No way I'd hit the ground running.

That I would be fine,
That everything would be all right.
Dreamed that I'd fall in stride,
And manage to stay by your side.

Left with the ghost of you,
What the fuck was I supposed to do?
How could I sit there and believe?
You'd leave me with no mercy?

I denied it all, I flat-out refused to see.
I'd sooner end my life than think you'd abandon me.
All this anguish is the result of what was heresy.
That you'd let me take this fall and just let me be.

Maybe I was supposed to know
How to land and how to go,
From losing my very best friend
And straight to when this pain would end.

But I don't work that way,
You know that as the truth.
I could hardly stand to stay awake,
Thinking so much about you.

A total fucking wreck,
Is that not what you'd expect?
When you knew me so well,
And didn't try to catch me when I fell?

Was this tough love?
Was this a lesson to learn?
Why would you do this?
Just let me crash and burn?

I didn't hit the ground running,
I stumbled and fell.
I broke against the ground,
Life became a living hell.

So I'd stare up at the sky,
I'd hurt and wonder why,
Why would you let this occur?
What was this suppose to confer?

So you truly loved me,
You were my closest friend.
Yet you gave no warning,
As to how this would end.

The strength with which we were connected
Makes it impossible to go a day
Where my memories are not forcefully corrected
To pretend this pain has gone away.

So you told me to follow my bliss,
But how can I do that?
When I can no longer see you,
How can I bounce back?

I guess what I'm trying to say,
Is I got through it any way.
I had others help me get through,
No particular thanks to you.

I trusted you so much more than anyone,
More than I would ever trust anything,
If there is one thing I've learned,
It's to always question who I'm trusting.

Yes, I've grown from this,
I've developed thicker skin,
I still love you and that's the truth
But when and if you come back?
You have some explaining to do.