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I feel myself fading away
as if my heart had turned to a sieve
and my soul where leaking out.
Trying to hold onto that which I hold dear
only tears it more,
as it slowly slips away.

There was a time
when I didn't have to pretend
when my laughter was sincere.
and my smile glowed.
Now neither touch my eyes.

How can one little wound,
one you can't even see,
Bleed so much from me?
Now I see with elvish eyes,
and all that is young and pure,
lays dead and rotting before my gaze.

I sit and gaze at the stars,
as I always have.
I do it now even when the snow is falling,
for the night air can no longer chill me.
Ice does not feel the cold.

Do you know what it is to be half a man?
I can no longer stand on my own.
Now a burden upon all that I loved,
when I knew how.
Praise once I treasured,
now I need.
Like some junkie,
for I am nothing, whatever I hear otherwise.

I know what was once within this hole in me
I know what I should feel
I can fake it even.
The cost is so great,
I feel the exhaustion flowing in my bones.
I am so tired,
for this haunts me even into what dreams I still have.

My tears are slowly bleeding away,
draining through my heart.
When they should be shed through my eyes.
Pain that should be expressed
becoming a part of me.
drowning the flame of life within me,
and no one can help me kindle the few embers that remain.

I leave this note,
so that when I am finally gone,
maybe someone will understand why.
The fox can only stand the trap so long,
before he is willing to shed his own blood to be free.
Friends, life has steel jaws.
They have closed around my heart,
and there is only so long I can stand it.

Description
I feel myself fading away
as if my heart had turned to a sieve
and my soul where leaking out.
Trying to hold onto that which I hold dear
only tears it more,
as it slowly slips away.

There was a time
when I didn't have to pretend
when my laughter was sincere.
and my smile glowed.
Now neither touch my eyes.

How can one little wound,
one you can't even see,
Bleed so much from me?
Now I see with elvish eyes,
and all that is young and pure,
lays dead and rotting before my gaze.

I sit and gaze at the stars,
as I always have.
I do it now even when the snow is falling,
for the night air can no longer chill me.
Ice does not feel the cold.

Do you know what it is to be half a man?
I can no longer stand on my own.
Now a burden upon all that I loved,
when I knew how.
Praise once I treasured,
now I need.
Like some junkie,
for I am nothing, whatever I hear otherwise.

I know what was once within this hole in me
I know what I should feel
I can fake it even.
The cost is so great,
I feel the exhaustion flowing in my bones.
I am so tired,
for this haunts me even into what dreams I still have.

My tears are slowly bleeding away,
draining through my heart.
When they should be shed through my eyes.
Pain that should be expressed
becoming a part of me.
drowning the flame of life within me,
and no one can help me kindle the few embers that remain.

I leave this note,
so that when I am finally gone,
maybe someone will understand why.
The fox can only stand the trap so long,
before he is willing to shed his own blood to be free.
Friends, life has steel jaws.
They have closed around my heart,
and there is only so long I can stand it.